walk forward. breathe. be.

that voice in my head says
run…
run
run
runrunrunrunrun

as far and as fast as i can
back to that time when my dignity was
free for the taking
self-medicate with meaningless kisses/touches/words
(me but not me, them but not them, it’s easier that way)
build up the wall a little higher/thicker/more sound proof
keep me from getting hurt


that voice in my head says
run…
run
run
runrunrunrunrun

as far and as fast i can
into your arms
prying them open
douse your feet with my tears/fears/prayers
(wiping them with hair of the perfect length though everyone else likes it long)
begging for forgiveness/love/lust
keep me from getting hurt


my soul says
sit…
sit
sit
sit. breathe. be.

and for once i listen
sitting here
palms open, exposed
all my faults/insecurities/masks
(laid painfully bare)
waiting for your hand/heart/mind
to join mine

walk forward. breathe. be.