Saturday, May 19, 2007

My Own Personal Zen Waterfall...

(It's beyond just have to experience it for yourself. Gabriel knows what I'm talking about. :-))

I'm here.
I'm settled in but far from settled.
The parents are gone, Gabriel is gone...
I'm alone but far from alone.

My thoughts are keeping me company (read: beating me up) and there are plenty of things around here to distract me.

But I just want to sit and let the world turn without me for a little while.
I just want to breathe and find someplace deep down inside me that believes everything will be okay.

I have to get comfortable with not knowing.
I have to get comfortable with me.

But now more than ever I need a little reassurance.
Which is where you come in.
Thank you.


Anonymous said...

Everything will be alright. Don't worry, things will happen as they need to. You are where you want to be, doing what you want to do. How can that be a bad thing?? Just remember that I'm here for you and stand behind you 100%


Themindtaker said...
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Themindtaker said...

When I read this yesterday at your house, I chuckled at the Jesus Christ Superstar reference, and you thought I was finished reading, and too proud to admit I wasn't a faster reader, I just decided to read the rest later...

...Little did I know, if I had read the whole thing while I was next to you, given you a big hug, and a bit of reassurance. You're doing really well Lindsey, and I'm happy you're letting me be a part of it. You can always get a few kind words from me. Always.

"Close your eyes, close your eyes, and relax think of nothing tonight."