Stream of Conciousness at the Dentist

(As close to the actual thought process that went on in my head during my dentist appointment today as written word can get...)

If I can be mindful here, I can be mindful anywhere.

Deep breath. Pain is just a reminder I'm alive. I won't find my cave...I won't slip away...I'm here...

OH MY GOODNESS IS THAT BLOOD?? I'm bleeding all over her gloves!

Breathe. Blood is just a part of being human. I'm human, I'm connected to all those humans around me. Life is good and we are all just....Drool.

I just drooled all over myself thanks to her poor skills with the sucker. It's okay she's only human. I am she as she is me as you are me and we are all...Drool. One more time and I'm going to spit on her. She should be glad I don't have rabies.

I can feel my heart beating in my mouth. Just breathe and listen to the sound of my heart beat reminding me what a miracle it is that every day I wake up and breathe and....Drool.

Sometimes mindfulness is over-rated.

We interupt your regularly scheduled programing...

I tried to grow up too fast.
I realized this while I was driving this afternoon- windows down, blasting RENT. I haven't belted out show tunes in way too long.
"La Vie Boheme" was a great surprise waiting for me when I got back in my car. :-)

When I was 19 I desperately wanted to be 25...I was too good for all that college stuff.

Now that I'm 22, I desperately want to be 19 (well, with a fake ID).

Ironic that my last two nights as a student at Drury I actually have fun and realize what college should have been all about. I've missed out on some pretty amazing people by being "too good".

I guess I still have Thursday and Friday night...and hell, it would be perfectly "college" to show up to commencement hung-over right? ;-)

Oh man...maybe the joy really is in the journey.
This moment is a beautiful moment. :-D